YSunday, January 08, 2006
im writing this in the comfort of a cold and wet weather..by the window..
letting the splitz and splatz of raindrops hit me..letting the cool breeze of the wind freeze me..
as the rain gets heavier and heavier..i get drenched.
but im laughing..cuz it feels so good.. ;)
the greatness of the Lord..the weather, the gifts of nature that will never be permanent..
if only it was permanent..if only we are permanent.
heh.
i dun wana be immortal tho..cuz as we are living this life..
we are already unaware of our purpose and our direction..
where do we go next?
what to do next?
what to become next?
what's next?
i doubt any of us would wana continue their life routine like that for eternity
-but then again, i never know.heh.
do you??-tell me.i wana noe.
TIME..we only have so little of it..yet too much of it will be of redundance
aspirations..ambitions..imaginations..hopes and dreams..
so many to achieve and excel in..
many people fret too much-including me.
and i honestly cant fathom why..haha
why can't we just STOP worrying and just get right to it?
people always ponder over the things that doesnt need to be pondered upon..
other people's lives..the righteousness of the religion and the reason for living.
why nose in to other's when your life's uncertain.
why question Islam when it is the religion tat gave you the sense of belonging.
why question the reason for your presence when your already living it for yearss..
why ask?? -i bring the shame upon myself..for questioning so much.heh.
i just can't help being inquisitive--alike most of you.. :D
friends, acquaintances, relatives, families..
they all asked me the same question..
"why now??" - is that a question or a statement?
tell me were is the wrong in wearing a head-dress..
tell me wat form of restrictions could it bring me..
what negligence could i have made..to doing wat i am meant to do??
does it make me un-cool?
does it make me unattractive?
does it make me look uptight?
well it doesnt matter cuz it puts me in a better place..
a better state of mind..
and it gives me the respect and the serenity that not any other ordinary women will receive.
the respect that i have for myself and my religion.
the serenity that i have gathered from the prayers and the reminders of Him always being there
[need i say more?]
we are special.let me tell you tat.
so stop asking me if it's hot..cuz its not.
stop asking me why cover so much..cuz i feel less sinful.
stop makin false judgements
cuz i wun give a fag wit a cuppa coffee to listen to u.
just stop.
u may look down on me as i'm imperfect
dun empathize me, for im not the worst off yet
dun think highly of me, for im not quite an intellect
dun criticize as you have yourself to first look at.
may peace be upon you.
_callous_ was here with you at
